Monday, February 27, 2012 // 1:57 PM
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maybe i'm too quick to judge people and thats why i always get bombed. sigh. sorry to whoever who read the earlier post. im just thinking too much into it.
sorry
Saturday, February 25, 2012 // 8:17 PM
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Honestly i dont even know how to say how disappointed im feeling. Only time will tell when a friend is true or not. I thought that my circle of friends as a family; close knitted. Shall not say names but if anyone happens to read and finds themselves being talked about here, i find it is my right. I dare not say straight to their faces because i feel that it would only cause things to deteriorate. But i dont think they view me and boyf as their close friends. I know its hard to go out together anymore since all of them have bikes now and me and boyf are the black sheep. But then, i just find that it wouldn't hurt to ask us along, even knowing that we can't cause of no transport. Its the saying "the thought that counts". It breaks my heart. Maybe i wouldn't mind so mch. But im not happy for the fact they dont ask my boyf either since they've all been friends for ages! Cant they at least ask my boyfriend or sth? :( and even when its obvious i already find out, you can still say to me "oh i only know like yeterday"
You guys didnt even bother asking or tellig at all and i had to resort to finding out myself. Really heartpain seeing as i feel i take te initiatives about people and then when it comes to me & boyf, we get this kind of treatment. Fron our close friends somemore!!! :(:(
Thursday, February 23, 2012 // 6:57 PM
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i guess i know the reason why i can never delete this web. its because, reading all my previous post from years back always seems to make me feel the heartaches again. from loving someone to losing him, being left alone at the playground to hurting someone who was being nice to me. I can't honestly say that i'll be able to not make the same mistake. people make stupid mistakes when in love. but i miss the innocence. not the stupidity. last time, i always thought that love is something that is so simple. i was wrong. it never is. but i was capable of doing so much for someone i love. nevertheless, the scars from the past reopens. i regretted not learning earlier on. i hate it when people guessed me right... you were right baby. i was stupid. i shouldn't have been. but im learning now..
Wednesday, February 22, 2012 // 7:14 PM
♣ belated pictures
here's the pictures that was taken during our sentosa outing.
we had Sarpino's for Lunch. it wasn't a filling lunch though. i was still so hungry but dare not open up my mouth to tell the girls. hahaha. cause i'm a pig like that.
it was a freaking tiring day. but see the smiles on our faces? we're happy people. :)
Monday, February 20, 2012 // 6:49 PM
♣ Weekend
Unfortunately I've forgotten to bring my cable to work. So I shall only verbally update this blog without pictures. (oh how boring). In any case, Saturday was the usually dating session with boyf to Vivocity for a movie. & this time round we watched Ghost Rider 2, which is such a huge disappointment. I honestly think the first one is WAY MUCH better. -_-
So afterwards, we just sat outside vivo smoking & he was helping me to organize my money. -_- planning for future ey? we were planning to book hotel for our birthdays and invite the gang to hang out together. so we're supposed to be saving up for it. but, im sucha failure i can't even save a bloody decent amount. pathetic. i keep spending on food! so he was nagging to me to save which i know its only cause he has my best interest at heart. okay i get it. and then he went to drink with his brother -_- yes, he could afford it. i can't :/
So i went home, slept cause Sunday i was going out with the ladies. We went to Sentosa where we walked alot, ate alot and i freaked out during the damn bloody skyride. Halfway it stopped and sto p p e d and s t o p p e d. the thing kept swinging back and forth so i kept imagining i was gonna fall off. =(
Labels: dates, ladies, weekends
Friday, February 17, 2012 // 3:16 PM
♣ Us
We've been together for 2 years now. 25 months. 25 months of happiness, sadness, laughters & nontheless tears.
Although I always have doubts about us, I'm still happy we made it so far together. If last time people were to ask, 'will you ever love again after xxx?' my answer would be no. But you made me change that.
And truth be told, if you're not with me, I am 100% sure i'm not working in an office, i wont have completed my dip. & the list would go on.
I need this. This blog, to let me vent out everything. every single thing we talk about or fight about. So lets start with last night. My confession about going out to the place. Yes, its all a huge mess for me. But you still told me on the phone that you'll always love me.
But after this episode, will everything still be the same..?
Sunday, August 7, 2011 // 1:07 AM
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Day 2 - Your favourite bag that you ownunfortunately, i don't really have a favourite bag. how lame is that. but it doesn't hurt to blog the bag that i would love to get my hands on :)
if god were to throw money to earth, this would be the handbag that i'd buy. not just for the brand but this bag's design appeals to me. and also, i love its leathery texture. dang. :(
would any kind soul buy me this? :)
Saturday, August 6, 2011 // 2:52 AM
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am i not a human being as well? to have to keep my feelings to myself. its a little too much to ask. i'm not good with words. i'm not good at sharing. sometimes my words jumbled up and people misunderstand me. but all i just want to let you know is that my words counts as well.
there are so many incidents in our life that i'm the cause of a fight or misunderstanding. oh yes, i'm aware of it. and so many other things too. lately, my words are harsh to your ears. its cause simple things are just not simple anymore. is it because the problem has become something more complex or i've become incoherent with my thoughts; jumbling things up mentally. I don't know. how many times have i wished in my life to be able to know all the answers to the world. but of course thats impossible as to be able to know those answers would mean that i'm god. but im just a lowly human. with feelings.
and i just wish that my feelings, thoughts, words and everything would be heard. don't push me aside like something that isn't important.
Friday, August 5, 2011 // 2:18 PM
♣ The 30 Day Challenge
Day 01 — Your favorite eyelinerOkay, on the left is the image of my favourite eyeliner. Eversince I worked as a Clinique consultant, I actually started using their makeups as well and one of the best makeup products is their gel liner. Its smudge proof. It has a mixture of acrylic in it so after a minute, the eyeliner is smudge-proof. This eyeliner is simply the best and it last quite long.
Also it comes with a small brush.
Honestly I love this to the max because you can draw it as thick/thin as you want it to be. and sometimes, the eyeliners we use tends to lose its colour by midday. But this gel liner looks the same until you end the day.
:)
Thursday, August 4, 2011 // 12:53 AM
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i never had the heart of deleting this blog.
not because of being proud of my past-time,
but merely finding it hard to believe i was once that way.
its a constant reminder of me to be thankful that i've changed.
there's many things that i still can improve.
but for now, i'm contented.
<3xo
