“If I know what love is, it is because of you.”

April 2016 December 2016 January 2017 May 2018

Is it too cruel to say that I resent being married?
Don’t get me wrong, I still love my husband deeply and my son very much too.
But what I missed the most is being able to move freely and go wherever I want to without having to think twice. i miss the fun I had during our (me and husb) courtship days. I miss going on late night rides to anywhere and everywhere without having to think twice. I miss the surprises I get from my husband. I miss being able to travel anywhere without thinking of expenses. i miss going on our honeymoons. Most of all, I miss my old self, the carefree one who is able to do alot of things.

... I just... I wont think twice about having to go through all this again just to have my son. I love him very muchZ But being a mum, its just different. I’m never one to be tied down. But with him, I’m constantly at edge. i don’t know what to expect. No, he’s not a difficult child. I just wish I have a guide on how to go through life with a child. Is there something wrong with me?